there are many things goin on back in cchms... firstly is our class prob... everyone seem to be in their own world... haiz... seriously, where is the class spirit? IT is so goin to get scolded once again... a lecture i guess? cuz our form teacher hates this...

everythin seems to be goin haywire for me... my life is in a total mess... why must this always happen to me? there are still many many probs awaiting me to solve... i dunno... it seems tat i do not hav the courage to face all these probs... wad am i goin to do? how? haiz... but there are things i want to let go but i cant... there are things i want to forget but i guess i cant... there is no more courage in me to do wad i want to do alr... so wad i can do now is to find my courage... do things which i dare not do...

but... do you know tat you hav hurt me too much? it's not jus a word sorry and you can heal everything? i think i understand wad you are trying to deliver... i guess i will wait? nah... i dunno... i will jus see wad i can do and follow wad i think it's right...

haiz... valerie is helping me... too much... that i dunno wad can i do without her... she really helped me alot alot... i dunno how to thank her... cuz i guess i owe her quite alot now... i really got to thank her sincerely...

not jus her... kor... he has been listening to me the past few days... counselling me, teaching me things... i feel very sorry for him... always got to listen to all my probs... he gav me lots of advice and taught me lots of things... taught me how to face things in a different perspective... how to let things go at the right time... how to trust ppl when at the right time... telling me tat wad i accumulate now will help me in the future... i really got to thank my kor... if it's not for him, i will seriously be very very lost...

actually, there are many more ppl tat stood by my side when i am lost... teaching me how to solve prob... i really got to thank all of them... i dunno how many of my frenz from cchms, ballet and many more helped me but i really got to say a very big thank you to all of you... for taking time to listen to me and helped me in a way or another... thank you...

-Ashley-