i am back from school... decided to blog... feeling rather down now... due to some reasons... cuz of school? results? class and class? i dunno... but these days, nth seem to be goin the right way... things are changing, time is passing and ppl are changing... haiz...

results are back!!! everything is lik a total disaster... my eng got a C5 which is 57.5... higher chinese managed to get a B4... 62.8... maths is badly done... really bad... B3 only... 68.5... science, 48.5... D7... this is my worst sub... haiz... geog, 63.6... B4... i screwed my geog... history, 86.4... at least i got a A1... lit, i got 69.4... B3... it's 0.6 marks away from A2... ah... art B3, 67... well, it's experted tat my art is so low... so i dun really bother... home econs i got 73 which is A2... kinda ok for me...

haiz... overall i didnt do well... teachers all say i am capable of scoring better results... jus tat i gotta work harder... and study more... study again... i jus kinda hate this word these days... every time, when a result is back my mum will ask me to study and work harder... den she will start nagging and start comtrolling me again... haiz... i hate being controlled... but, as children, shouldnt we be controlled? haiz... it's all planned... it's all fate...

-Ashley-


ok, i am sorry... i lost all the links... the only links i found back was my sac frenz... i am sorry ppl... tag me to link you ppl... i am sorry...

oh ya, i went to the sinseh today... it was a painful experience... but i am kinda feeling much better now... it still hurts though... not as much as yesterday... it's swollen... but i guess it's alright tat it swell... so... jus leave it alone...

-Ashley-
(a short post. sorry)


i am blogging once again... i am happy and sad when i am posting this post... becuz i didnt fail maths... although i didnt do very well for maths, but i am happy tat i got a B3... still havent combine CA marks... maybe i will do better if there are CA marks added in... den, i topped LIT for SA... the SA paper i mean... Rachel and i got the same marks and topped the class... yay! very hyper... but i think we lose to JT again... anyway, losing to JT is jia chang bian fan alr... it's kinda nth...

but for inter-class competition, we gotta win EP... JT, i dun really care... for soccer, we really gotta beat EP... i got this determination and i am sure we can trash EP... cuz manfred's soccer isnt tat gd after all... i am sure xin ze, yong jia and justin are better than him... so we really gotta prove him wrong... we gotta work and prac super hard... the only thing we are lack with now is stamina, teamwork and strategy... we really got to strategise... in order to trash EP... then we must learn to work as a team... i am sure we can...

talking abt soccer, i fell during today's training... i think i sprained the bone which is around the knee... it's very painful... it hurts alot at first tat i really wanted to cry... den now my left leg is very weak... very very weak... i cant balance on my left leg... whenever i wanna balance, i will feel lik falling... not feel lik, it's really falling... den goin up and down the stairs i really gotta be very careful... walking too... i really hate this... it's super uncomfortable to walk and be lik this... den kinda nobody is there for me...

i seriously gotta get well soon... as in my leg and i really got to zhen zuo qi lai... i cant continue to brood over stuff... i got to try to rest my leg... try not to over-work it... cuz if i over work it, i cant play soccer on 27/5... so, wad i can do now is try not to walk too much and try to walk slowly... den mayb i will go ballet tmr but jus sit there and see them dance... cuz my leg's condition is super not gd now... haiz...

-Ashley-


haha... i am blogging from school... rachel and jaydee are beside me... rachel is so cute... heehee... actually, we are here to do the audacity thing... but i guess i am here to slack... but not reallty slacking... at least i did the synosis... all in chi... omg... i actually type smth in chi... pro right? jkjk...

but still, my group manage to complete everything... the poster, the editing and the synosis... poster, i am totally clueless to wad they did... cuz i wasnt with the guys... busy doin my stuff... but i think the guys used photoshop... jus to do the poster... den, wen qi and i actually wen qi only... spent alot of time on the editing... cuz we dunno how to edit... den i was the wan talking ans talking... instructing her was to do... i noe action speak louder than words but i really dunno how to do the audicity thing... so... i can only talk... but not do... sorry... haha... but i actually typed out the whole synosis... at least i comtributed smth right?

but still, i got to help them combine files into a folder... all thanks to them... nah... it's ok... i am the leader... so help them do stuff it's alright? i guess... cuz they contributed enough... at least they didnt ask me to do everything... they did smth... so it's ok...

not, this place is very chaotic... many ppl here... not jus it ppl... got jt, rp den i dunno alr... here to do the art photoshop, i guess? dun bother to ask cuz i dunno them... wad i can do now is to do my own things... i am super bored not... nth better to do... my class ppl most of them playing com...

-Ashley-


haiz... higher chinese results are back... and they are back for gd... i am super dead... really felt lik dying... my very first time... feel lik dying cuz of hcl... it's lik the end of the world... i was actually super sad and angry with myself... i studied so hard for hcl and yet, i barely passed...

it's tat wad i wanted? no right? i am very angry with myself... studied so hard and yet, i barely past... almost failed... or mayb i did... i count wrongly? i dunno... but i really feel lik killing myself or dying... wad's the point of studying if i dun get a 70 and above... haiz...

ya, i got 14/20 for situational writing... i lost 3 marks cuz of errors in the boxes... 3 marks!!! if not, it would be a 17?! you noe how much difference?! 17 and 14... haiz... compo 41/70... lost 5 marks cuz of wrong written words... pro right?! if not, it would be a 46?! i am super angry with myself... for paper 2, i got 59/110... even more pro right?! almost failed!!! haiz...

i dunno wad i am gonna do... all i can do now is to work harder for hcl... cuz it's really not easy to pass for hcl... but i am both angry and sad now... haiz...

-Ashley-


ah... went to extract 2 of my pre-molars... one is deformed the other isnt... i took 8 injections... pro right? 6 isnt painful... the other 2 was... ah... but it's ok... not tat i didnt tak injections before...

actually, the dentist wanted to extract 1 first and i go back on mon but i cant... cuz, i hav no idea wad time school ends on mon... so i insisted tat she shld extract the 2 today... brave right? jkjk... so, she gav me many injections to numb me... inject and inject... it's was ok at first but it started to hurt... den my whole mouth was totally numb... she gav me 2 painkillers to swollow... (dunno how to spell)... cant feel a thing... i hate the numbness...

after that, she used this metal stick, put in inside my mouth on tat tooth she was gonna extract den started twisting... but, i didnt feel a thing... cuz of the numbness and the painkiller... actually i can hear a cracking sound... it's was super scary... after the tooth was almost out, she used this very big this which looks lik a nutcracker (dunno wad was that) to put it into my mouth and tak out the tooth... its was super horrible... the feeling wasnt good... i was kinda traumatized...

ya, i was traumatized... kinda... it's isnt my 1st time extracting teeth but i dunno why, this time round, it seemed very scary... maybe cuz of the injections and tat big big thing which looked lik a nutcracker... haiz... nvm... i wont extract tooth ever again unless it's really necessary...

-Ashley-


there are many things goin on back in cchms... firstly is our class prob... everyone seem to be in their own world... haiz... seriously, where is the class spirit? IT is so goin to get scolded once again... a lecture i guess? cuz our form teacher hates this...

everythin seems to be goin haywire for me... my life is in a total mess... why must this always happen to me? there are still many many probs awaiting me to solve... i dunno... it seems tat i do not hav the courage to face all these probs... wad am i goin to do? how? haiz... but there are things i want to let go but i cant... there are things i want to forget but i guess i cant... there is no more courage in me to do wad i want to do alr... so wad i can do now is to find my courage... do things which i dare not do...

but... do you know tat you hav hurt me too much? it's not jus a word sorry and you can heal everything? i think i understand wad you are trying to deliver... i guess i will wait? nah... i dunno... i will jus see wad i can do and follow wad i think it's right...

haiz... valerie is helping me... too much... that i dunno wad can i do without her... she really helped me alot alot... i dunno how to thank her... cuz i guess i owe her quite alot now... i really got to thank her sincerely...

not jus her... kor... he has been listening to me the past few days... counselling me, teaching me things... i feel very sorry for him... always got to listen to all my probs... he gav me lots of advice and taught me lots of things... taught me how to face things in a different perspective... how to let things go at the right time... how to trust ppl when at the right time... telling me tat wad i accumulate now will help me in the future... i really got to thank my kor... if it's not for him, i will seriously be very very lost...

actually, there are many more ppl tat stood by my side when i am lost... teaching me how to solve prob... i really got to thank all of them... i dunno how many of my frenz from cchms, ballet and many more helped me but i really got to say a very big thank you to all of you... for taking time to listen to me and helped me in a way or another... thank you...

-Ashley-


wad's seriously happening to the class? where was the IT spirit? didnt we live in peace and harmony last time? didnt we had lots of fun as a class? wasnt we very happy at tat time? why cant we stand together as a class?

time seriously is gonna determined everythin... we first started out as i very united class... having lots of fun together, joking with one another... there wasnt disputes and stuff lik tat... but as time passes, ppl seriously will change... and as ppl change, the class spirit is goin down the drain... why do we hav to do that?

now, girls and boys arent talking any more... but why? the boys are not talking to us and we are not caring about the boys too... when we see each other in the school hall, we completely ignore the presence of one another... only afew boys were talking to afew girls... the rest jus stand there and continued talking among themselves... why are we doin this? haiz... must IT really continue to be lik this?

very soon, ms cheng is so goin to giv us another lecture... but this time round, it will be a super big one... it might turn out to be even a scolding... ya... cuz ms cheng is someone who really wants the class to stand hand-in-hand... she dun wan us to start hating each other and stuff lik that... she jus wanna everyone to be together... lik wad my pri school teacher always says, united we stand, divided we fall... i think ms cheng wants us to be lik this too... but is it still possible? when there are so much of hates and dislikes goin on? but can we still stand together and smth lik we're all in this together?

but in the 1st place must she tel ms cheng? she seriously got rachel in a very big trouble... not jus tat, she got IT into a big disaster... has she think of the consequences? rachel is very sad you noe? this seriously caused a disaster you noe? i dunno... but... everyone is in the wrong becuz of this matter... you can voice in out but not complain and say you wanna report police right? you once cyber bullied me but did i do anything? no right? hav you every thought of wad you are doin and reflect? it's not tat you are the only one that got to reflect... everyone involved got to reflect... but it's jus tat before you do anything, hav you ever though of the consequences?

i dunno wad i am doin... i dunno if i am cyber bullying tat person... but i kinda dun care... all i noe now is i got to be there for rachel... supporting her, cheering her up... that's wad i am goin to do...

-Ashley-


haha... i am slacking again... and tues is SCIENCE!!! so dead... cant afford to fail sci again... so i really gotta work hard... but, sci is so hard... how to work hard??? nvm... continue memorising... 可是死背有用嗎？nvm... jus memorise the formula and stuff... read my summary over and over again... and must 加油加油！



sorry for typing in chi... but it's kinda fun... haha... mayb cuz i am too bored... nth better to do besides studying... and i think i shld tak a break fron studying... had been studying for lik many hrs... woke up so at 8 jus to go for chi tuition when chi exam is alr over... ended up, 3hrs, i had been sneezing and sneezing... used alot of tissue paper i guess? actually dun think it's alot... clement and ryan used more, i guess? it's was kinda cold... teacher on the air con in the morning?! but i kinda had lots of fun?

den went ikea den giant... at tampines... it was fun but boring... fun becuz i can walk aroung and see the interesting things in ikea... boring cuz there is simply nth to buy... jus walking aroung aimlessly? i think... giant cuz there are many food items to see... they are kinda interesting and nice to see? den, i spotted smth... GOLDEN PEARS!!! wad are these? i hav nvr heard of them nor see them or eat them before... 1st time seeing... but they are cute? golden brown color... very interesting... haha...

ok... let's talk abt my kor in cchms... ppl tat are close to me shld noe... but frenz from sac who wanna noe who he is, you can ask me via sms or msn... haha... he is very nice to me... kinda truly a kor alr... help me with many things, supported me through many things and guided me through many things... he is really very nice... haha... a true fren of mine... not a fren... a brother... and i am serious... (haha)...

den... there is smth i wanna say... cchms is kinda getting into my nerves... so many things happening... alot of wars goin on in class... why cant it jus live in peace and harmony? shldnt tat be the it spirit? why must it ppl hate it ppl? why must there be hatred? why cant there be love and sharing? i seriously hope ppl in it can think twice before they do anythin... resolve the hatred... change ppl... it's not good to continue to be lik this... (i am not referring to one person in it but everyone in it)... stop the hatred and live in peace...

nxt is some personal probs which i dun wanna to say... cuz it's kinda hurting... really hurting... i will try to forget... real soon... cuz i dun wanna to break down again... oh... wait! i promise rachel, jaydee, shu xuan and kor not to break down... so i cant... i must stay happy! i cant becuz of ppl and i ruin my own life...

talking abt all these makes to think of 6FR... the times when we really had fun... were the times when we got scolded by Mrs Ho... the times when we went against ms chow... the times when we defy teacher and got scolded... the times when we were playing with the pe teachers... it's was truly the times when i enjoyed myself in p6... not jus that... the graduation thing, was also a hard work done by 6FR... it was actually in a total mess... but after days of hard work, it finally was done... it was truly smth to be proud of...

ok... this post it's kinda emo... makin me think of the many memories i had in sac... good and bad ones.. from the time when friends this work didnt mean anything to me... and the times when i had a group of friends tat were beside me, supporting me...

sorry... a kinda really emo post... really sorry... anyway goodlucks to all my frenz taking MYE!!!

-Ashley-


i finally found some time to blog... and i am finally able to use the com after many days... haha... but as usual, i am very busy... busy with what? exams... of cuz... whose not busy with exams during this time of the year? everyone is... i mean students... most of them... majority of them...

taken eng, hcl papers 1 and 2 and maths paper 1... and i screwed the hcl papers 1 and 2... so gonna die... hcl paper one, the compo i got to shorten the ending jus becuz i didnt hav enough time... haiz... shld hav wrote faster... but i cant... cuz my writing speed tat day was alr the fasest i can write... so... jus hope that i wont fail my hcl paper 1... abt hcl paper2, i was feel very sick tat day... could not really concentrate... my throat was killing me and my nose was partly blocked... do not know wad i was actually doin... but i managed to finish the paper in a total rush... besides, there are many words i dunno how to write... tat's worst... eng was kinda ok... jus hope i wont fail eng... maths, i didnt know how to do 3 ques but i guess it's gonna be ok...

the upcoming papers are eng lit, sci paper, maths paper 2 and SPA (science practical assessment)... i am still ok with lit... cuz i lik lit alot alot... haha... science, i must work very hard... must study harder (if i can???)... cuz i cant fail another sci paper... this is mye... so musnt fail... cuz i hav alr failed 2 sci test... it's horrible... really got to study for sci... maths paper 2... calculators can be used so i think its really ok... think... SPA... i really dunno wad they are goin to do so jus let nature takes its cause...

ok... i am gonna to continue to work hard for lit... i got lit paper today... haha... so gtg... haha...

-Ashley-