these few days, alot of things happening... it's dem tiring... so many prob... why are there so many probs in life? why is life so unfair? why cant life be smooth sailing? i hate the many probs occuring in my life... it's fustrating and irritating...

jus recently, if you read my previous post, ms pang, my ballet teacher, keep on scolding me... it's irritating... once she scolds me, i am dem irritated and fustrated den i got no mood to dance alr... when i am happy, i am dance better, practice better, do my best... but the moment she scold me only, i got no mood to dance alr... haiz... why cant she not scold me for jus one lesson only?

besides tat, i really wanna pass my ballet exam with flying colours... i really wanna tak intermediate foundation... cant ms pang understand my hard work? and the effort i am putting in? it's really sad to say tat ms pang doesnt seem to lik me alr... den she always scold me... haiz... life is so unfair...

there are still many family matters not solved... i hate family matters... but i think it got nth to do with me... but i feel very hopeless as i am no help to them... i can only sit there and listen to wad they are talking abt... cant comfort them or say smth... cuz i really dunno wad to say... and i am dem sad and hopeless... ah... hate myself...

i really hate myself... i find tat my life is getting more and more complicated... there are so many prob waiting for me to solve... many exams and tests waiting for me to tak... why is life so unfair? why am i so hopeless? i really hate myself...

-Ashley-