sorry for not blogging for a very long time... had been really busy in school... doin alot alot of stuff... SA is coming so really got to work doubly hard... i kinda am slacking now a days... but i promise to work doubly hard from nxt week... must prove to thise ppl who look down on me... think i cannot mak it in cchms...

school has not been fun... after the holiday, the boys is class seem to lik to bully us... especially yong jia... but it's not fun to get bullied by them... they really changed alot after the holiday... sad... but boys this creature, i really dun understand them...

this week, got many scoldings... i mean the whole class... cuz we were noisy and rude? but lik it seems tat teacher love to scold our class and find fault in us now a days... haiz...

ballet dem tiring now a days... cuz exam coming so teacher trying to drill us... but i will work harder and try to pass my grade 6 exam with flying colors... cuz ballet is the thing i lik to do so i got to do my very best...

my knee is aching now a days... very painful... the prob is starting again... haiz...

i gtg... blog another day...

-Ashley-


these few days, alot of things happening... it's dem tiring... so many prob... why are there so many probs in life? why is life so unfair? why cant life be smooth sailing? i hate the many probs occuring in my life... it's fustrating and irritating...

jus recently, if you read my previous post, ms pang, my ballet teacher, keep on scolding me... it's irritating... once she scolds me, i am dem irritated and fustrated den i got no mood to dance alr... when i am happy, i am dance better, practice better, do my best... but the moment she scold me only, i got no mood to dance alr... haiz... why cant she not scold me for jus one lesson only?

besides tat, i really wanna pass my ballet exam with flying colours... i really wanna tak intermediate foundation... cant ms pang understand my hard work? and the effort i am putting in? it's really sad to say tat ms pang doesnt seem to lik me alr... den she always scold me... haiz... life is so unfair...

there are still many family matters not solved... i hate family matters... but i think it got nth to do with me... but i feel very hopeless as i am no help to them... i can only sit there and listen to wad they are talking abt... cant comfort them or say smth... cuz i really dunno wad to say... and i am dem sad and hopeless... ah... hate myself...

i really hate myself... i find tat my life is getting more and more complicated... there are so many prob waiting for me to solve... many exams and tests waiting for me to tak... why is life so unfair? why am i so hopeless? i really hate myself...

-Ashley-


as usual, jus came back from ballet... i dun lik the feelin of so many pairs of eyes on me... many many pairs of eyes... it's kind of freaky though... haha...

it was basically fun to dance in front of so many ppl... but some how or rather scary... i nvr dance in front of so many ppl for a very long time alr... so the feeling isnt very gd... some how or rather i manage to overcome all my tension... cuz i wan actually very tense and i didnt even dare to look at the audience... but slowly, i managed to warm up and do my best...

i did smth wrong... i knew tat smth aure will go wrong... the 1st duet dance... it's alr wrong... sian... 1st one... but the following ones was ok... cuz was feeling quite ok... wasnt as tense as previously...
actually, lik wad ms pang say, must enjoy... if you enjoy, the examiner can feel tat you are enjoying and she might giv you more marks... cuz if you really enjoy, you will put in more effort and it will be so much better... den the flow and stuff will be nicer...

but anyway, if you work hard, strive hard and play hard, the examiner might noe... and put on more effort... hahax...

-Ashley-


i bored... so decided to blog again... really got nth to do during the holidays... i wanna smth to do... jus hope ms pang can giv more ballet lessons... cuz then can practise more... den hav higher chances of scoring better in ballet exam...

ballet has been real boring now a days... cuz sometimes we jus sit there and see other ppl dance... really very bored you noe... no choice... cuz ballet exam is coming soon so ms pang got to do one by one or duet by duet or group by group so it will tak more time... so got to be patient and wait... but it's fun when we got to do duet together... it's nice... then will get a chance to practise and improve and another reason it becuz we wont be very nervous during exam... cuz we are dancing in front of a big group but during exam is only to an examiner... actually, most of the time, teacher will let my partner and i dance... cuz we must really imrpove... valerie is really a nice person... hav fun dancing with her... we will smile and laugh at each other during dance...

really got to do character dance for exam alr... cuz everyone say i look nice in character and ms pang say tat too... i am the only one doin character dance in my group... sian... but mayb will hav a chance to score better... cuz nobody doin the dance den it's lik no competitors... in a sense... cuz ballet exam is lik a competition... competing who will score better... hahax... anyway they are my competitors but also my very very gd frenz... we always had fun together as a group as we hav a chance to dance together...

change sub... the feeling of not goin to school is not nice... i really enjoy goin to school... maybe becuz there is no one to play with me at home... i am the only child... and it's not fun to be the only child... i wolud rather hav a sibling... hahaz...

anyway, i miss my cousins... my kor kor and jiejie... very long nvr see them alr... actually not really tat long... but jus misses them... haha... i am serious ... i also miss my classmates... it's fun to be with them though... and the ppl in cchms... cchms is really a gd school... cuz of the teachers, seniors and students there... haha...

-Ashley-


jus came back from school... from guides... got the dem enrollment test today... sian... i think i sure fail de... but still got to think positive and live on... but guides seniors were quite nice today... i practically didnt do a single squad... haha... cuz maybe becuz the squad doin squads tat time we was not there... becuz of some reasons... will tel you ltr...

today last day of school for term one... this term indeed passed really fast... 10 week of school jus ended lik this... i got many things to say... i find tat through this 10 weeks of school i really got to know so much more abt my classmates... really bond as a class... we are so called the most united class in the whole sec 1 level... mayb cuz we got the least number of pupils... and cuz there is yong jia... and many more crazy boys... no offence... anyway i am also very close to the girls... and especially Jaydee, Ranchel, ShuXuan, Rachel, Gennie, Lenice, Shanice... they really gav me alot of encouragement and support... got things to say to them...

to all those who were by my side when i am sad:
i really thank all of you all... for encouraging me and supporting me... cheering me on... helping me... basically, i would lik to thank the who of IT, my frenz from CR, DL, EP, GR, HM, JT and many many more... i really treasure everyone of you...

very emo... haha... i noe... but seriously i treasure my frenz... hahaz...

anyway IT must thank this boy from JT... cuz he mopped our class floor for us... he volunteered... anyway really must thank him... hahax... cuz of the class cleaning thing... got to clean our own class... den nobody willing to stay back... den we got to go for guides so he was outside... den he volunteered to do it...

-ashley-


jus came back from ballet lessons... feeling very exhausted but still decided to blog... cuz i am seriously very bored while printing the thing for Internet Broadcasting... a quite slack subject in school... but luckily, it's not graded... hahaz...

ballet was tiring today... ms pang was doin many things... cuz ballet exam is round the corner and we got to work extra hard... lik wad she say, grade6 is not an easy grade to pass... ok, was asked to do character dance... teacher say i look nice in character dance... but do i really look nice? i really dunno... i feelin lik doin freemovement but i cant possibly tel her... cuz then she might jus go against me... anyway jus do as she say... she wanna me do character dance then i will do it...

but, i hate the studies for upper back... i jus cannot do it... not jus me, most of the ppl in class cant do tat... it's hard though... but its a compulsory dance for all of us... sian... basically, i am ok at bar work... it's quite easy... jus hav to poise more and look smarter... hahax... centre work is quite hard... some things i cannot do it rather well... but i will work harder... i am sure i can improve within this few lessons... i am ok at character... cuz ms pang say i am nice when i do character... dunno why... hahax...

school has been busy... really busy at school... there are many tests this week and it's getting into my nerves... today, did 3 tests in a row... so stress... higher chinese, geog and art... all the tests was hard... especially art... there is 1ques which i dunno wad it wad talking abt... haiz... but 1st time taking art test so fail, i dun think it's a prob... sorry to say tat...

anyway hav you heard of art test? it's kind of weird taking art test... i am jus not use to it... art is stressfull in sec school cuz it's an examinated sub... den there are many things for you to learn and absorb... tiring...

ok gtg... there is still school tmr... bye... will blog again asap...

-Ashley-


once again, sorry for not posting for a really long time... been really busy at school... making new friends, playing with frenz and doin many other things... but smth happened which i find it very funny... but not goin to say wad happened...

guides is rather slack... it's jus simply not as fun as i thought... but jus goin to keep to wad i am doin... but suddenly, feel lik joining dance cca... cuz simply lik dancing now a days... i enjoy goin ballet! dunno why... not becuz of frenz... is becuz i seem to be attached to dance in dunno wad reason... lik dancing makes me feel happy and the kind of feeling is nobody can giv me de... really, tat time, i shld hav listened to my mum and go for the dance audition... but, there's someone i dun lik in dance so if i join dance, it would be rather funny... but it seems tat i fell in love with dancing... ah... nvm...

ballet has been fun... ballet exam is coming so got to work extra hard... extra extra hard... lik wad teacher say, grade 6 is not an easy grade to pass so got to work very very hard for it... goin for ballet lessons as many time as i could... 1wk 3times instead of 4... anyway big accomplishment alr... haha... cuz there is ppl who 1week go once or twice only...

school, nth much happen... made a fren called manfred... ok, boy... can say tat he is my fren... but only talk to him once but he is nice... but i tel you, there is this JT boy who is quite irritating... he keep on saying JT won IT... at 1st is quite fun but after tat i dun find it funny... but sometimes jus play with him cuz very bored... haha... i dunno him, he dunno me so... haha... as in in terms of name...

den now i very close to shuxuan... very fun playing with her... she is very nice to talk to too... haha... ok... more of i high she follow me high... or she high i follow her high... haha... den her fren xinying also quite high and nice... actually she is nice... haha... most of the ppl in CCHMS are nice actually... frenly... nice being with them...

-Ashley-