nth seem to be goin smoothly tis month... lotsa things happened... unhappy ones especially... i really dun wan recal unhappy happenings but i am really fuming mad at all these happenings... i really wan someone to talk to but i jus dunno who i can talk to... my kor kor jie jie r so busy tat they r running after time, my frenz i jus dunno how to express it to them, my parents r all so busy at work... i jus wanna someone who concerns abt me to talk to... let me tel u wad really happened...

really sick... during the school holidays, my cousins jing hui n kexin r alr getting into my nerves... kexon dun to study... ask her to study she will say 'u think i robot ah? everyday study...' den jing hui, even worst... ask her to shower she dun wan means dun wan... den she will start pretend to be crying... den the maid will force her to go shower... den if she dun wan somemore, my ah ma will tak cane beat her... soft one k... den she will cry even louder n say 'i dun lik ah ma, i dun wan ah ma... i dun wan come ah ma hse...' is not tat my ah ma dun understand eng... i noe tat when my ah ma hear tis she will be very sad... but she jus hav to keep it to herself...

another thing... i think i hurt my ah ma tdy... but i really dunno how to keep my feelings... i really cannot keep it alr... u noe the jing hui beat me den snatch my hp... den she mak noise only i kanna all the scolding... i am totally innocent!!! it got nth to do with me... it's so unfair... y must all the eldest get the scolding... i jus dun understand... den i dun understand y jing hui do so many things she nvr get scolding... den i will ask my parents they will say 'she is still young' pls lah, p1 alr u noe... still everthin giv in to her... if we continue to do tis, she will spoil her... goin to die!

anyway in i tel u bein the eldest is the worst thing... in my paternal side, i can say tat i had nvr been scolded... but in my maternal side, i am the one always getting the scolding... i am dueing with my PSLE den my grandparents they all always scold me i really cannot cope alr... i will soon been suffering fron depression...