after reunion, i still think tat my kinship with my cousinz r still very bad...... we still dun communicate with each other often...... i really think it's very funny...... my other cousinz can communicate well with each other but not me......

let me tel u, i got a cousin whom i never really talk to u noe..... it's lik totally never talk to him...... den sometimes i cal him kor kor, he also dun ans me...... i dunno whether is he never hear or dun even bother abt me...... i dunno...... he only care abt the other cousinz but not me..... he does tis to me every CNY n family gathering...... den he talks to everyone but not me, he makes me feel very extra n left out...... i dunno wad to say...... wads the matter with him? i dunno whether the prob lies in me or him u noe...... i remember got once i did smth wrong n made him angry but tis matter happened long time ago n he should already let the matter rest...... but i might not noe is there still any other probs...... maybe he find me childush, wilful but i'm not tat type of ppl...... i really wanna to noe wads the prob between us n solve it...... there's jus a knot in our kinship...... smth isn't right...... i really hope it's only for now n it will end as soon as i grow older n i really hope to patch up our kinship...... i really wanna to solve the prob between us but i dun hav the courage to do so...... i really hope i got someone to talk to but i dun hav one...... jus hope kor will treat me lik how he treat my other kor kor jie jie......

i had been thinking abt tis matter for a very long time...... whenever i c him, i will always think of how he treats me...... i dunno wad happened......anyway i will jus hav to wait until he really treats me as his cousin......